Be There

Back in college!! & I'm writing this because I'm stuck with my Math =_=" OKAY Math is just not my thing... studying alone is a BIG MISTAKE I've been whatsapp-ing people for help........ but no one replied which at this rate I might even die without people noticing me ;A;

It's just the second week of the 2nd semester & I'm loaded with tooooooooons of work do you people feeel me??? T^T I've been questioning myself in the first sem why the hackk do I take this IB thing?! and still... questioning myself HAHA but I'm trying to fit in here...

You see... I have trust issues & still do and when I'm here I'm trying to put back my trust to the people who really cared for me . I'm very grateful and thankful for my roommates and my friends it has been a really wonderful friendship in this college but after I got my semester one result that is only 28 points out of 42 points & the min. qualifications for an IB student is actually 35 to flyy I REALIZED.....

You just need to be your own hero !!! what about friends ? won't they be there when you fall ? won't they help you ? in my pov they ARE THERE but that's it they are only there... will they help? they will well.. some of them but will that solve everything? with just help? I'm not saying these things to be negative about my friends but this is based on my own experience.

In my batch here in college they kept on chanting this #NoOneGetsLeftBehind which very motivates me in helping my friends... but what happened is I think I'm the one being left behind... when we got assigned with IB works.. Extended Essay.. Internal Assessment.. & others everyone is worried of not having any ideas when asked "I still don't have any idea, don't worry" "I haven't done the work yet, don't worry" "Let's send the work due on the next day together" still.....

In the end when they already got their work done . that's it . THEY'RE DONE . it happens to me & to my friend it really stinksss... trust me.. well they'll help you to give some ideas but they'll be busy with their own work . they too have other things to settle & I respect that . I'm not blaming them I'm blaming ME ^_^ maybe I didn't think hard enough.. maybe I'm just too lazy.... but this is what I get trust no one & be your own hero >_< but thanks to Allah there's still people who really stood by me and is still there not to mention this one friend who actually helped with my EE & IA ideas in return I helped her with her ideas and I believe we can make this through together.. All of us will inshaAllah :))

sorry if this entry seems to hurt any feelings . i didn't intend to . really am sorry