As usual long time no write any post.. haha.. its not that I'm not in the mood to write but I wish that the words would be typed out automatically the moment I only thought of it.. just too lazy to do anything.. lol & my laziness is killing me these days.. yeah just gonna spread all my negative vibes here so bare with it if you're going to read.. >_<
lmao I've been experiencing Hypophrenia the moment my college life starts haha the problem wasn't the college.. it's me,, guess it's because I'm still not ready for any of these. not ready to grow up. but yeah.. its not something that anyone can prevent. there will be a point where we just have to decide everything on our own. and for me that time is; NOW
Sadly, I'm no longer in school where my parents would nag me about homeworks. Irony isn't it? how we wished to stop being nagged when we were in school and now when in college how I wish they would nag me to do my works. but they don't. "you're big enough to think what's best for you now" is the only thing that they keep telling me.
which country to further study? which university to? what course will you take? what are you going to be in the future? hmm.. hmm.. tbh.. I don't have the answers to all of the questions at all. since high school I never really have a certain ambition on what I would like to be in the future. seriously not futuristic at all =_=" heard people say many things tho.. "why bother study if you have no aim?" "just quit study then its a waste of time" "you just be a housewife no need study" I have a question to ask too tho..
"Do we need to study just for the sake of getting a job?" according to hadith Riwayah Ibn Majah & Abu Ya'la; "Seeking for ilmu is compulsory to all muslims" as a muslim learning itself is a must.. not necessarily for us to have good job, making good money, being at a high position in a big company one day is it? well.. correct me if I'm wrong.
Too much things to get done at one time now. well thanks to all my procrastinating too xD lol put the blame on me hahaha. Can't even decide where am I gonna go tho.. I REALLY NEED TO CHANGE.. and been telling that for the nth time to myself too xD but still.... Yeah.. haha maybe I'm uncertain & lost now but inshaAllah I'm gonna find the right path.. might just follow my instinct for now, & of course have faith in Allah.
