Trying hard to endure everything but just not in my best mood today =_=" this entry is just full of disappointments so if you expect any good advice here you can just stop reading here & move on to the next blog :)) sorry. in just like 24 hours I had almost four mental breakdowns HAHA in other words I'M SCREWED ^_^
first, I got mad at my friends OBVIOUSLY from the fault I made . I know its stupid . second, stressed out on finding the RQ for my Extended Essay while complaining to my parents how hard IB is but that just made me feel USELESS as a nineteen years old so called "IB Student" who got pampered so much as the only daughter in the siblings but still couldn't think about college all by myself & go crying back to my parents . third, waiting for food for almost an hour when we had dinner outside just now HAHA . fourth, got mad at myself for everything that I got mad with today lmao
someone once said this, "I don't see any good in me all I can reflect are just flaws everywhere am screwed" hate to say this . but I FEEL YOU now =_=" having a very negative charge around me today & that is soooo not good >_< but out of the four mtbd I had.. number one was the stupidest one, although I did got mad at first but it was just for a while.. I ended up blaming myself . blaming yourself for everything that happened is not right but I'm like that . see my flaws . seriously my friends didn't do anything wrong in the end it was all me ^_^
I lost countless seconds of happiness today HAHA >_< yeay me . not to mention tweeting nonsense tweets last night HAHA said not to make it obvious since semester one but obviously making it obvious day by day HAHA by now I'm not even surprised that people around could even sense it HAHA even got picked by your friends HAHA I bet you did notice what's going on by now and by you I mean YOU lol can say that I predicted what's going to happen next HAHA but not going to say it here ^^
"it's either he likes you or he hates you" lmao when my friend said that this morning . it doesn't even take me a second to tell her "he hates me" HAHA why? because my instinct said so lmao because I trust no one maybe that's why I believe my instinct? lol :'D maybe trust no one is a bad quote anyway in my case that is, people said I always think positive when it's about others but I'm negative when it's related to me . see my flaws . now my entry is not even related to mental breakdown xD
hmmmm in my case, the truth comes out when I'm sleepy HAHA maybe this is right too (?) yepp this entry is pure truth no faking any word from the word trying hard to endure - he hates me - until now I'm being truthful HAHA okay except for the laugh that's just too fake ^_^ and also the smilies lol so to conclude all this mess I'm the cause to all of my madness today ^^ yeay no worries no one is at fault . and thanks for even reading this lmao its pure nonsense right? but for me its not :'D
