Keep Going!

you know i used to watch 'The Biggest Loser" & wonder man how can they push themselves so hard in order to get in shape. not trying to be judgmental tho but looking at my own self technically speaking they're a lot bigger.. but seriously i already felt like giving up when i went jogging for the first time after like how many months last week.. and to be honest when i went for a jog the last few days i almost cried right after one round around a-not-so-big lake.. or i already cried (?) i donno. can't remember. lol seriously it was only the first round!

yeah.. i agree.. you know, whatever we do. no matter what we're facing. we gotta believe in our-self be confident! they say. so why bother shading off those fat? just be confident with yourself :)  that's what some people told me... but BHAHAHA yeah right, life is not like in the movies or dramas you watch bruhh judgmental people everywhere.. either you're rich or you're poor. you're dead gorgeous or damn ugly. people would just talk about you it's either they're just jealous of the life you're having, or they actually cared about you or i donno... maybe just because they have mouth so they just felt like talking..

but being affected by what they say is your choice tho :) but in my case.. it's not like i started working out just because some people call me fat xD BHAHAHA lol just felt like i need to..for my future health. huhu but whatever people say, it's either you wanna take it in a positive way to help you improve or take it as a negative think and go ruin yourself. but remember tho, if what you're doing is actually wrong & you know it's wrong & you still wanna stick to the "i'm being myself" concept then don't go complaining to others saying you're sick of being judged. ^^ you chose it.

been seeing lots of "finding my old self" "i'm finding myself" status. but i don't think you have to search for the old you because what's in the past stays in the past, no need to try to be the old you. you can just start creating the new you :) if you think the old you is better than the you now then all you need to do is be a better you ^^ lel i know things are easier said than done. but you just gotta give it a try. don't waste your time trying to find your true identity. you can just create one as they say "fake it till you make it" :)

as i am counting the days... it's only 176 days left before we're going to sit for our IB Exam >_< if you think that's a lot of days left, then think again. with all the assignments due next week & all the studying we need to do for the semester exam. it would be a complete lie if i say everyone is handling it so well :) smiling and anticipating for the semester to end happily :) lol! break downs everywhere tho.. donno if the guys are facing this too, but in less then a week i've been seeing girls crying everywhere lol sleeping at 4 in the morning? it's a common thing now.

whatever hardships you're facing.. just keep going.. don't stop now because we're more than half-way there.. in less then 6 months everything is gonna be over.. our college life i mean. no more differentiating the A-Levels or the IB kids. no more those #ibsurviving hashtags. when you feel like giving up, instead of seeing how much more work left to get done look at how far you've gotten. how many friends you've made. how many memories you've created. if you don't have any or don't have many, don't worry you still got time ^^ the last time i scribbled on my paper saying "i'm dumb!" "i can't do math!" the lecturer told me; "it's okay, take it slow we have 4 months together before your exam, we can do this.. no need to rush.. don't worry, slowly we can solve it. together."

i don't even know how to rate my math tho.. lol seriously, i just dislike doing it.. but her words. when she said together. it made me realise, instead of trying to solve all your problems on your own, why don't you solve it together. whatever things that you can do together with your friends, classmates, course mate whatever.. try doing it together. that's how important having each other is. how important having friends is. instead of just talking bad behind each others back, wasting your time thinking off how to keep putting people down. why don't you hold hands & help each other. True friends are hard to find? instead of searching for one why don't we start being one :) besides, we always have the best helper with us, Him, Allah. :) So;

okehhh.. now i'm hungry bhahahaha goodluck gaiss! :) heads up. don't give up. keep going. ^^